Lately, I haven’t been realising that I’m in my third year of college. And I think that thought has been overwhelming me that I was so focused from the start and now I’m full of mess and I don’t know where to begin picking up the pieces. I’ve grown attached to my dependency on mom the past 3 months of summer. Being without her again has been hard but it isn’t as grand as the first time. More than anything, I think, I need to love myself more. I need to let myself love myself. I’m slowly easing to respecting my body and that I only get to have one body. I need to learn how to love and care for it. (Without mom’s help.)
With school starting again, it means that my best friends will slowly lose out of touch again and I have to deal with the pressures of college and college friends. I don’t know.
It’s a labyrinth.